what a fool again

this kind of thing
this kind of thing happens to me.
a tocsin to myself
a new lesson
now I thank you very much
for telling me the truth at last
I'm out of the dream

so good for me to know that I didn't want to know
water thinks of blue but it's now all gone for nowhere
those days I was tougher

tougher
tougher
tougher.

want to tell them to run and hide
and make us learn that it shouldn't happen
it was such a trifling drama
occurred in my small eye sockets

what was I wishing for
within such small days

maybe I'm feeling a little better now
just a little
what am I?
I think I'm like an egg.

exhibition

my exhibition is now up at spin gallery in Jimbocho, Tokyo.





maiko susu shioda

first solo exhibition
'epilog'

Nov 21 (Fri) - Nov 27 (Thu), 2008
12:00 - 20:00

spin gallery
1-20 2F, Jimbocho, Kanda, Chiyoda-ku
http://spins.exblog.jp/

it's almost Christmas

　
started to smell red, green, white and gold lights

I had a scary dream last night
I couldn't come up with a song to sing
but my turn never came in the end
once I had the moon in my mug
where did that go?

I started to smell all those little stars　
　
my little ernie does that too.

ナメクジかわいそう

　
discontent
sublimate
it told me it'd been talking to a friendly ghost
nod, nod


no, it didn't mean to harm you,
it'd just been breathing by its skin
I wanted to let it go
I really wanted to let it go
it didn't need to die
it didn't need to die,
really

a poor little life,
please get reborn,
please get reborn and live safe until the death comes to you naturally someday,
please, live the life fully, safe next time.
　
　

short life

　
thin, thin 'hello' from the other side
cult horror fish, me,

なんだ、
どういうことだ
'心が屈折' ?
まだ若かった癖に。



追記：飼うというのはとてもとても大切に飼うということ、
　　　心から愛して一緒に居てもらうこと
　
　


　
　

missomething

　
oh, so that's what you were talking about?
memory of the garbage can


I don't know if you still remember of that
but in the end it became almost same to a human child.
it was amazing,
I wish you could watch that with us.



well I've never counted how many times I've been the worst one.
　
　

0.13

　
吠えるのは鏡に向かって.

もし天成が使い物にならないのなら、代わりに文鳥を飼えばよい.
　
　

　
　

0.11

　
there is no hot water for us any more
my triangle
my poor tangerine
we don't have that hot water
not any more


the death of the white coat
ring, ring circus bear
don't waste your love
eight more
very timid fruit trees
　
　

a tempo

　
magic
mirror
orbit


dwindle
double
orchis


sparkly
scatty
organdie


star
light
carnival　
　

Fig.3

　
in search of that legendary floating puffball.
　
　
　
　
　

ring ring circus

　
wow, everything is really sleeping now
that light faded away
but still alive with the kindness of that vampire

wonderful
it's very strange
I have been here
I know this place
yes I remember
remember it all
　
　

Fig.2

that apple（あの林檎）

the day of great shobonne

　
shobonne
tinkle
hit and run
hit and run

a feather grew out of that
t o m a t o
on your
second tail!


uh
it never flows the way I want.
　
　

わたしの三角（傲慢ながら）

　
わたしは
どうしたら良いのだ
なににも　なれていやしないのか!
箱の中の
とりあえずうまいこと転がる方のビー玉なのか


こんなのは中々ばかばかしい
自分を信じて
強くならなきゃ、


こんなのでは
気持ちがしょんぼりしてあの辺りの妖精たちのように
小さく小さくなって
それこそ朝顔の種ほどの大きさになって、


くるくる、
2,3,4,5番め


嗚呼くやしい気持だ
巣へよじ登るのだ
もうほんとうに知らないんだからね、
もう知らない

あとで観て、
こっそり泣いちゃうがいいんだ!
　
　

Fig.1

sympathy and curse

　
乾いた手のひらに
蛙？鳩？何かそんなようなものを飼っていた

サンティマンタリズム

そうだそうだ,

またあの呪文を
白いガーデンドレスの　低いポケットの


lili

my flower

ruby, ruby, ruby

pigeon's blood.
　
　

夕方を見て、

　
今年最後の蝉が
かわいそうに遅すぎた蝉が
うちの庭の木で鳴いている

居たたまれないほどむくんだ顔
古い布が欲しいからnaughtyへ話しにゆく

何とも不安定な物欲の世界である
　
　

mistake again

　
I disappointed you
disappointed you
again,


do spiders feel pain,
when they land on earth from my hands?


I made a mistake
worst mistake
again,　
　
　

the honest bed

　
animals, sleeping,
said,
that's what I'd never accomplished

the bed murmured,
but I could hardly hear it
I guess it said,

"thanks mamma,"　
　
　

awakening

　
thinking
silently

what a happy time,
such golden days

it was like a waterfall of killifish.
it was like an apple of the state in between flower and fruit.
　
　

advice

　
money can't buy you back the friend that you're losing now
money can't buy you back the friend that you're losing now　
　
　
so go ring that doorbell right now
come ring my doorbell right now
　
　

諦めのつかないことがら

　
people gone all the sudden
yes,
I affirm
no,
it's white

weakly
answer
worry
memory
in　the shape of a swan

sundried palms


misunderstood
monsters
　
　

ころげおちる

　
stop,
come back,
now.


the storm is gone,
but we will have another one soon,
I can tell you it'll be very soon,
much sooner than you expect.


so stop,
come back,
now.

cottondust

　
　
this is what you get when you:

a) smash boiled potatoes against the wall
b) sink in the floor and touch the sand
c) sing about the ribbon you lost on the voyage


cry, cry

I will go to collect my chipmunks
never to miss even only one of them
nothing worse than that would happen
that's what you told me when you sent me away

ワルツ

　
1. abstract cake

2. コウモリの森

3. 飛翔する泡
　
　

retribution

　
I see, this is what that really is.
　
　

a chant

　

was there any way to avoid this?
this must be a curse on my soul.

lililili lililili-a.


how does such a thin string stand such a burden?
I'm going wrong.


oh no I remember,
but yes, sometime in the future, again.
oh no it's torn down already,
I came just too late to stop them.

so this is that "golden promise" no one has ever kept.
listen,


lililili lililili-a.

a letter

 

the moth successfully reached the moon.
he wrote to me:


you should do better,
you always can't push yourself enough.

you must do better,
otherwise you will lose the face to show anyone.

 

 

regretful regretful

the towel smelled like a pencil.

please, everything, stop once,

otherwise nothing would remain in here

otherwise I would make a mistake

mistake

mistake

ending up at the starting point again.

I never mature.